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I want more people to read my blog. Wait let me refrase that... If no one reads this, then I am just babbling on about my intimate thoughts to no one. Please read.

Today...

I talked to a very inspiring and expierienced man. He told me that he was applying for a job at a salon somewhere that is really known for good haircuts. He was put down and told he could never be good enough for hair styling (Today, while I got my haircut, I would beg to differ). He left and he learned through being an apprentice and about 3 years later he came back when the hair salon was having a sort of grand re-opening. He proved to them that he could do it, and even tought that guy some things. I heard that and it was so inspiring to hear.

October 5th...

October 5th is when something really exciting in my life is happening. I am going to a recording studio up in North Jersey, with the band, The Title. Nick, the singer of the band is a very good friend of Tom and I will be recording us and mastering each songs. This is the point in my life where I can start to prove to people that I can further my life's dream even though they have pushed me back. I thank Nick with my utmost greatness.

Being Straight Ege in a drug centered populas in school...

When I first moved to New Jersey, I was very uneasy on how people would take on being drug free, and alcohol free for that matter. One thing I can say was that alot of people thought that was wierd. Wierd!? Let me ask society something, what have we become? I'm wierd because I do not do drugs or alcohol!? Wow, it really confuses me to think that something so easy and smart is looked down upon as if I do things very unussually.
It just goes to show you how dumb "people" are at times. It is common sense, if you do not want to screw your life up, do not do drugs. Society knows what it does, so why do peopel still do it? It is not even these people that have messed up lives, theyr'e these people that have opportunities unlike other people and they ruin it. I'm am not sorry to those who read this and find it offensive. Drugs are completely piontless and so is alcohol

A song dedicated to my dad...

"Your World Taken Now By Anger"

Versus 1-
Look into the horizon
It is very demising
how three years from now
You'll wonder how
And why it's not here
And that's what you fear
You hope never to desire
But to keep on the wire
Of connection to your heart
So unfortunate for you
The disease only takes few
But it will tear you apart

Versus 2-
May you rest in peace and happiness
For you taught me the world
And the world I will carry on
(Repeats until fades)

This song is for the celebration of my father's life. It is also about a horrible disease that took such a grand and important person out of my life, called Cancer. The reaso it is called "Your World From Now Taken By Anger," is because when he was diagnosed with Terminal brain Cancer, he gradually was not himself anymore. As the he grew weak he grew angrier, and it was like he became insane, but I love my father, and I know that was not him.

Lyrics- "Maybe Jumping Off a Bridge Isn't Such a Bad Idea"

"Maybe Jumping Off a Bridge Isn't Such a Bad Idea"

Versus 1-
Let's all take a good look,
But let others make the decision
Let's put him with them because,
He does not read the book
Wait for the collision,
Of the body's division,
As they fall to their cause

Chorus-
Jump off the bridge,
Let's all hear what they think,
Of you now
Maybe they'll think your'e someone now

Versus 2-
You have your own oppinion,
But it doesn't matter at all,
Because when you listen to them,
You feel so small
Wouldn't you want to feel big and strong,
But every time you feel this,
There is a wall

Chorus-
Jump off the bridge,
Let's all hear what they think,
Of you now,
Maybe they'll think your someone now- x2

Versus 3-
Let's all jump off this bridge (repeated)

Chorus-
Jump off the bridge,
Let's all hear what they think,
Of you now,
Maybe they'll think your someone now
(repeated until fades on 5th time)

This song relates to the explanation on the few paragraphs I wrote called "This world..."

My sister...

My sister, the one in my life who I love the most and trust. She has a unique responsibility of protecting this country. She is a part of the Military Police in the U.S. army, and she is going to be stationed in Iraq in about a year. I write this because I contantly think about her and hope to god, she does not get hurt.
I also hope that others like her, in the mist of this terrible war of bomb-shed, they are alright and safe. I am against any war that is unnesisary like the the war in Iraq. Bring our troops home!

This World...

So morally corrupt. If you turn on channels like Comedy Central, MTV, and Spike TV, you get some immoral "entertainment." It is influences like these that "corrupt" children or make them think that these actions are accepted in society. In High School, (being a Junior) I hear countless profanity usage, drugs being the main idea of kids afternoons, and guys treating girls like objects of unimportance.
I am in the proccess of writing lyrics about this. The name of it is called, "Maybe jumping off a bridge isn't such a bad idea."
I am not religious but there are so many people that do not believe in religion and these actions are what they seem to portray. I feel as if, if I were to go out in public, and present myself as an anti-religious base, then people who are religious would depict me with these people who encircle their lives with such morally wrong things. But my point about the religion is that I do not believe in god or anything but I believe in good moral, and that way of thinking is just unussual.

Through Music...

Through Music I want to prove to the people that have tried to bring me down, that in spite of them, I have succeeded. I also want to share through music the common knowledge of how messed up this world can be. I know how bad life can get, and I want to be people's inspiration one day, that in spite of their problems, likewise me, they can overcome them.
This is my dream. I have other dreams but they all collide into each other and have a main idea of peace and good moral. Think of it as a painting, you have all these different colors but all of those simple colors combine and become a beautiful masterpeice. My fullest dream is to have the world become one big "masterpiece."

My dream

Is to become a musician and express my feelings through music. Not much of a post but I thought I would shout that out for people who actually read this.

Friends Have Moved On

I moved to my birthplace in New Jersey when my father Dan died from terminal brain cancer. From the place where I consider myself truely raised in. I have made very fond and loving memories there with friends and my father. However when I lost my father to this horrible disease, I also lost my greatest friends life could offer. Despite all of these good memories I have made with my friends, they unlike me, are moving on. I have never met a person as hopeful as me, I love hope, it is the reason I try. The reason I bring up hope is because they have lost hope, and in the aftermath of that, it has made them move on.
I hold on so desperately, even though them leaving me behind has already started. Hints of them moving on are not clear to me right now but it is just enough to convince me that they are starting to let go.
I have lost too much in life, it even left scares, I hold on to things so meaningless, like pen caps, plastic things, small and unussual, it's very wierd. I hope I will accomplish my dreams of being in a band. And sincerelly hope that none of my friends move on.